#RANDOM #POISON

Why is it so hard to believe that people changed? I don't even know why I am writing this but I just felt to. Isn’t it weird? One person who have been with us and promised us that they going to love us till the last breath changed and leave us. Isn't weird? The single boy or girl who was so proud of their relationship status, who stayed alone for a long time and enjoyed spending time with their friends and family broke down just for a single person in their life...

Love. The foundation of everything and everything. Love is the most powerful feeling in the life whereas in a dictionary it is define as

mass noun

1An intense feeling of deep affection.

Synonyms

1.1 A strong feeling of affection and sexual attraction

Synonyms

1.2 Affectionate greetings conveyed to someone on one's behalf.

Synonyms

1.3 A formula for ending an affectionate letter.

and etc. Credit goes to Oxford dictionary and yeah it is just the noun part. You may check in Oxford for verb, phrases and so on.

This all kind of definition for the word Love have another meaning in my own dictionary. It's mine and don't get offended. It's the Poison. I felt love is a slow poison that kills a man. Yeah it's the powerful weapon that can melt down any giant in the entire universe.

The single boy or girl who got attacked by a Cupid with an arrow -kinda cinematic right -I know but no harm will fall in love..! So once they fall in love. They will obviously find their life looks better. The giant that never shared anything before will share everything now. Starting from the food to his /her room. Yeah love is caring and sharing. Ignoring the entire world next to them and only concentrates to one person. There is nothing beyond them. Sometimes they might feel they are the only two creature in the world and they will promise to each other like ‘Baby I will never leave you until the end of my life. Love you so much. ‘My heart curse 'my foot'.

So as the lovey dovey couple believes in each other and will live together. But how long..?

It's life man. Do you think you only going to be happy even if you finds it boring? Eventually staying with same person is boring. You won't find anything attractive after 6 months but some do.  

So as times passes. The fight will begin, the fight will get bigger and to the biggest. From the same person you will hear I hate you. You are biggest mistake of my life. Wahh so he or she will reply last time I was your life and now I am your biggest mistake in your life.  So as I am the biggest mistake you can do whatever you want. Two ego-ic person will decide to have a mutual break up. And in some relationship, one will stay strong and say no and will make a move to solve it.

And some will bring some other into their life. I don't want to talk anything about the first option. Let's talk about the other two.

By saying no and decide to discuss half problem of the case can be consider as solved case. I mean discuss not a second argument. If argument goes on then the first type decision will come. If discussion takes place then you can solve your problem.

So now the third one, bringing another person. Holy shit! This option really creeps me out. Being replaced or thrown away. First it can be a reason why your partner begins the fight, second the lifeless creature so called your partner might bore with you. At last they don't feel you are their cup of tea. I fall out from love and I fell in love with her or him. If I was there, my reply will be like do I look like a pool for you? Fell and fall out. No honey you are not pool but fool. End of his life..! Game over!

Whatever type you might be but everything hurts. Every single thing. The after effect of love is bad. Trust me love is injurious to health. Maybe one or two days you might feel okay or some might be analysing their mistake and some might be having a good time. Living the life without the person whom you lived with is unbelievable. Oh man! I can't even sleep without my teddy bear. How to sleep without the person who was sleeping next to me.

As soon as possible you will begin to miss everything. You will begin to think that you are worthless and you are nothing. Hallucinations like you will find everything reminds you him or her. Even a piece of cake-'it’s his favourite cake'. You may find suffocated to live without them. The fb and insta post also might reminds him or her to you. I hate that memories option. Do I ask you to remember?

Everything will happen. You will shut the door and cry, you will cry in the shower, in the subway, inside your car, everywhere and anywhere. And do you think you cry because of love?

No you are crying because you lost your companion. You are crying because your heart doesn't want to believe that the person you love the most have changed. Yes you were single before. You did everything on your own but once someone entered your life, you begins to become dependent. You depend on her to prepare food for you. You depend on him to picks and drop you from work. So now everything changed.

You will miss those drive carefully text messages. You will miss stay safe honey reminders. But deep down the same heart will whisper he is no more, he have changed.. What changed him..? You will break into million pieces.

And Brains will reply people change you monkey. Brain smarter what.

Until you get this reply you won't be in peace. No matter where you go, your ex love life will haunt you down. So accept the changes and move on. There is better life out there. Cry if it makes you better but cry for a day then tell to yourself that you are going to forget everything. Have a good hairstyling or makeover session and Move on. Go Google on how to move on. You will find tons of way.

Lastly, the most important thing is to fall in love once again but this time fall in love with yourself first. When you poison yourself first, others poison won't give you much defects as your antibody will develop and protect you. LOL. You will heal and have a happier life The right one will come to you. Just wait! But Love is poison. 

P.S: My heartiest congratulations to those who are being in love for years. You guys are the best. Stay loyal to your partner and always be like this. I love to see happy couples out there.  

365 days

Zoooped.. my one year passed just like that.. Thinking back on what I did and was it useful was ridiculous. When life is bringing you somewhere and you feel like you belong nowhere is the best weird kind of situation. Personally I've gone through such days in my life and I think most of us have gone through it. Best friends turn into strangers and strangers can turn into your best friend.. The one person that I hate most in my class is now the person I love the most now.. Isn't it strange..? Everything changed..

Going through all these ups and downs of life made me stronger. The little broken girl is now no longer crying for small matters..Sometimes even the biggest problems are handled with a smile. Having no fear of her future---- doesn't mean that she have settled but she believes all is going to be perfect.. Okay now coming to the perfect life.. Perfect life is having a good husband.. two beautiful kids... one small house with a car and yeah a good amount of income...????? uh no..
Perfect life for her was always having a happy life.. Yeah she is happy now and now the question arises on how is she happy.. ? The first key point is she don't care. She don't care about anything and everything.. She have heard all the nasty talks about her. She have seen backstabbers in her life. Her boyfriend cheated on her.. She couldn't concentrate on her studies and she failed.. So much... If 'don't care' is a phrase which is kinda rude then we can call it as ignorance.. Hurmmm sounds pretty good isn't it.. So she ignores..
She'd be in a circle who can boost her confidence not with those who can bring her down.. She preffered to be in place where she can find positive aura. She began to take care of herself and she put herself first. A little bit of selfishness can be considered :p and it's not selfishness it's self care..
This was the ways she brought happiness on her life.. She is happier and she trust there is always better things waiting for her. She trust herself not someone else..She ignores negative things and she took care of herself.. She focused on her goals... She love her family and the circle she spend her time.. She counts her blessings and she make zero complaint.. She is fantastic..
So every little broken girl out there.. Don't worry you can be the "She" that I am talking about.. chin up princess.. Better days are coming..

Love,
the broken little girl once :)

COMMON# FIRST LOVE FAILED

Things might have been change all the while. As listening to songs brings cure, it brings back the pain. Never wondered why it happened will be the biggest lie ever that someone going to say. Maybe you just never wonder now. Moving on is just fine but at one point when we step down pause for a while and turn back. You will rethink everything, you may laugh at some moments at first then a sudden tear will run down your cheek. With a smile you will think you were the best and the worst thing that ever happened to me. I can never forgive but I did at end. Finding reason why that particular person left will be the worst thing that you going to find. You know some people leave us without any reason. At some point you will think I never done anything wrong except loving you.  

HEY! JUST STOP WONDERING AND THINKING! HE OR SHE DOESN'T DESERVE YOU. It was the only advice that you're friend gave you at that time. It was the best advice ever. Slowly by time passes, it shall pass on. YES INDEED IT! It pass on but sadly memories never fade. First love is the most special one. You may met the best person in your life but somewhere in the corner of your heart you will have one kind of feeling. Strange kind of feeling; I guess no perfect word for that feelings. Anyhow God knows what is good for you. He will give the best to us. HAVE FAITH IN HIM. Stay Calm and believe you have better future or you might have the best person right beside you. No matter what happens!  Life have to move on and everything happens for a reason. 

PS: I accidentally listened to a song and i got all kind of feeling. Peace 

Day2#Music

Sitting in a train station alone while listening to the songs is one of the best thing for me. Have you ever felt so depressed and find your earphones to fix it? If no then try it. I promise you this will be the best treatment for you to overcome your depression. When you chuck your earphones and increase the volume to the max, you will never be able to the noise of your surrounding. When you listen to the songs you will never think much which means you are not going to think about the problem you are having. Sometimes your eyes will be filled tears if that songs remind you the cause of your depression. Yes! Crying can make you feel better so no harm. There is a day I sat for two hours in the station and listen to the songs..too depressed i guess. aiissshhh.. You will be in in your own world when doing this. Okay! Just forget about my depression. I overcame it. My favorite songs are always from the 80's and 90's. No matter how good the latest songs are going to be I'll still find for my old soul songs. Melody hits is in my first place. Hey! maybe sense of taste will different. Some like to hear those jazz,rock, carnatical, country, folk and lots more. Music has a soul on it. Music is always the best way to overcome depression. Try it but remember listening in high volume can cause hearing problem. High Volume when you are depressed only. Apart from this, when you are having a problem, stop stressing over it. Go with the flow and let it be. Every problem have a solution so everything will be okay.

Day 1#inspiration

   Let's begin my first day blogging. Today my colleague cum sister inspired me. Her question became my inspiration today. Do you know what question she asked? In a random conversation about blogging she said she got no inspiration to write back. So my answer was you can get inspiration in anything and everything. You itself an inspiration to me. Then she said how can I be an inspiration with a puzzled look. So I decided to write about inspiration today. She inspired me today.

   Inspiration is a single word that can make a person to feel better, to do something better,to overcome something and so many things more. I loved to get inspired. My first inspiration was my amma. She is an iron lady who stands beside my hero (appa) in his ups and downs. She worked really hard to make a small smile on my face. She inspired me to be a good wife and a good mom in future. Followed by so many people in my life inspired me. Even they were just a chapter in my life but they left me with something good to be inspired. I will look for an inspiration in everything I do. Sometimes my simple craft like card making will be from an inspiration. Finding inspiration before you do something will make you to do it better. Basically, it will be a push to you. In my career Sir Richard Branson is my inspiration. When you do something, do with your soul and mind. Nothing will go wrong and even it fails it will bring a great success in future. Just think it as a second chance of learning. Get inspired and you will get a new approach.

   Don't stop by just getting inspired, be an inspiration too.  You are special in your way and nobody can be you. Maybe you are an inspiration to someone unknowingly. In every downfall of your life you rise. Maybe you are the girl who cries the whole night and be with a smiley face in the morning. You see with a broken heart you still able to smile this means you are a strong person. If I was there with you as a

friend sure i'll get inspire. Oh dear! You will be an inspiration to me to be a strong girl. When you help someone, the other person who sees you will get inspire and help some other person who needs help. So do things which you think will keep you happy. Shhhh... this is the secret. DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY AND BE YOU. You will turn out to be an inspiration too. I believe in this loves. So remember get inspired and be a inspiration. Spread the love. 

P.S: that strong girl is my colleague